“I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well.” — Psalms 139:14
Is it just me… or have you ever put on something from your closet, walked to the mirror and found yourself going through a “If only I was ______ , than I would look a hundred times better.” moment? Like: “If only I was prettier, if only I was taller, slimmer, bigger, pimple free, hips free” and the list goes on. As if the first thing you notice about yourself is all the flaws. So daily you spend a little extra time in the mornings picking out your outfit. Trying to hide those very things that make you insecure about yourself.
For many years this was how life was for me. At a young age before I turned a year old, I received a skin condition called eczema (This is a rash that appears on the skin). For years I was so embarrassed to go out or to wear certain things because of it. Growing up I was talked about by people in school, home, and church because of this skin condition. They made me feel as if it was my fault why I suffered from what I have. So I became really insecure about myself which brought on low self esteem.
This was greatly reflected in my wardrobe, because the eczema spread from my arms to my neck, legs, and even my back. So everyday I would cover myself up completely (I don’t know if you know how serious this is because I live in Miami and its HOT!!). I would wear things that I didn’t like, or felt uncomfortable in just because I thought I was doing the world a favor by not showing my hideous skin.
Soon the eczema spread to my face. A PLACE THAT I COULD NOT HIDE!! It brought a hindrance to my social life and even my walk with Christ.
I began to ask the Lord questions like “Lord why did you make me so ugly?” and “Lord How can I stand before anybody and testify of your goodness looking like this?” Or Lord “Why did you make my sisters perfect (I have four beautiful sisters) and come up short in my life?” Eventually I began to question my own existence.
LADIES!! And GENTLEMEN!! Whoever is reading this post. When I say ” Thank God For JESUS!! I really mean it.
There is a verse that I shared at the beginning of this post in Psalms 139:14 (Read it! If you haven’t read it)
In all of my whining and crying to the Lord he spoke to me one day as I was ministering to another young woman. This young woman had no idea that she was going through the same thing I was. It was in that hour that the Lord reminded me that I am fearfully and wonderfully made….
The reason why I couldn’t see this was because I continued to look at myself through the eyes of man and their opinions. Instead of seeing myself through the eyes of God and His truths in my life.
You see, when The Lord fearfully and wonderfully made you, He took his time to fashion you in His own image. This means that He has given you the strength to overcome whatever situation is before you. Why? Because he fashioned you to be more than a conqueror through Him who loved us (Romans 8:37 read it)
So when you are faced with certain trials in life, it does not take away from your beauty. Instead it compliments your beauty as a believer in Christ. Although I had suffered from eczema for so long, I can now minister to others who suffer from skin disease, low self-esteem issues, insecurities, and even those contemplating suicide. The Lord has used my imperfections in a Perfect way.
The world has a different meaning for what beauty is. If you subject yourself to the way beauty is defined by the world than you will never really see yourself how God sees you.
From the day that the Lord spoke to me as I was ministering to that young lady, my eyes were truly opened. Now I don’t dress to impress the world anymore, but as the daughter of the King. Now the beauty and love of Christ in me has covered every flaw, sin, and imperfection in my life.
So remember Jesus created and fashioned you on purpose for a purpose because he fearfully and wonderfully made you. True story: Now when I step in front of a mirror I speak to myself and say “Girl… You Cute!” ( excuse my grammar lol.)
Embrace your beauty in Christ, and know this, that through the eyes of God You are beautiful inside and out. That’s an everlasting beauty you can hold on to Everyday, Not Just Sunday.